www.sacrifice-mine.blogspot.com

2008-10-30T23:22:00.002+08:00

bloW..foooHh))))))) KiNda dusty around here...
Mr Policeman gonna cleaN Up and Update tHis bloG soOn....So watCH out!!!
MOveBack Sir...!!

CPL M.AzharAziz

2008-04-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

Before this blog gets old & rusty,shall update with way way.. overdue photos..

Graduation on 26 March 08

Back to Kampung Trip

21st Birthday with eddy,sister & dila

Till my next entry..

2008-04-13T01:08:00.006+08:00

A very quick and short update of what have been happening lately in my life..

Finally graduated n have diploma certificate in my hands..

My early morning during weekdays are now filled up with conducting art & crafts workshops to primary school children in Jiemen & Kuo Chuan primary school with zul,najibah,amalina and other art instructors..
It was quite tough handling 40 children at first but got the hang of it now..
Will be teaching till the end of school term..

Buddies been meeting up very often for birthday parties,karaoke,movies and more..
Trips to kuala lumpur are in talks among the buddies and might be going there perhaps may or june..

Im loving my life,
Everything been goin smoothly...

Will try to update more when im free..

2008-03-17T00:24:00.008+08:00

My whole of last week was filled up with events

Ayer Rajah 8th Family Camp
Advance 21st Birthday & Eddy 20th Birthday..
21st Birthday at Aloha Changi with Sister,Eddy & Dila
Malacca Trip with Zul to Sarah Kampung with her family..
Catching movies with the buddies and sarah...

Just barely a few hours ago arrive in Singapore & the trip back home was a smooth one unlike when we left on friday. We were caught in the jam for 3 hours @ Tuas. In malacca, Abg Taufik brought us sight seeing ard A'famosa,Alor Gajah & Malacca Townside. Sarah's relatives all went back to since they had a family gathering cum telematch + bbq!!!

Had fun there and would most definitely love to go there again in the future..

Not forgetting I had the most fun celebrating my 21st birthday on both days.

The first night,celebrated with Eddy & the buddies..

On the second night,celebrated with the march oldies which is with my twin sister,Eddy & Dila my cousin..

Both nights were great..

My grandparents,my family & relatives,sarah family,buddies as well as some of the silat peeps came that night & im thankful for the presence..

Would like to thank my beloved sarah and her family for everything they have done.

I appreciate it & Im proud of you darl...as always!!

I Will updated the pix soon!!

Alot of activities has been going on lately with the buddies...

Im sure having fun!!

2008-03-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

What have I been up to lately??

Definitely enjoying myself b4 I am posted to serve NS.
Just last month,went up north to KL with the selatra peeps and we did have friendly silat match with the students from the universities there..
Spend most of my money on food & clothings..
Shopping at Petaling Streets was fun,bargaining with the stall holders..
Hope they organise more trips..

Its March!Woohooo

2008-02-05T12:39:00.000+08:00

BIOMEDICAL ELECTRONIC ENGINEERING

(BME)

GRADUATES

SCHOOL OF ENGINEERING

2008-01-31T23:39:00.000+08:00

DONE with FiNaL YeAr PrEsentation!!!! HaPPy like MaD!

Alhamdulillah....

ThOu ouR sChooL oF EnginEering presented lasT, Im Juz Glad Its NoW oVer & DoNe!!

Time to CeleBraTe!! WoOoOHoooO

1 More Day to Go!!!

Photos of YesterDay FYP PreSenTaTion!!!

Stress No mOre!!!

The four "engineers"Saifu, me, azzan, zahran outside booth..

My FYP teamates and our best ever supervisor, MR LIM NAM HOE

PeAcE!!! NO moRe FYP !!

me, azzan and JK flip flop or WAd

Me and princesZohra in our own booth. CUte or wad!

"LEpaQ" inside booth after presentation...

"VoGue" or WAd?!

"Smart maMat" or waD

FinaLLy we maNage to take picture with him, Mr Hisham Moosa! Our,

Assistant Director/programme chair for DBME.

Our supervisor, Mr Lim Nam Hoe aka LGH

"Ape mahu FYP lagi nie???!!!" the tagline i've been wanting to say!

That's about all...

Buddies..lets celebrate!! KL? BATAM? Melaka?

PS: CHAlet dont want,,,so RP!!!haha!

2008-01-28T00:32:00.000+08:00

Sacrifice myself to achive what they want. Hate me all u want...but to you sarah, thanks for believing in me. Appreciate what you have done for me. It's hard to find a girlfriend like you..., everybody agree about that..No big deal about that...Nobody in this world love me like you do...nobody except you! In my entire life ever since Iam with you, you are the only girlfriend that cares about me too much! you always reminds me of everything that i need to do without fail!! You just make me smile with whatever you do. I can't see myself leaving without you beside me and you know that...don't you.:-)People might say bad things about me but you try defending me instead. How lucky Iam. Thanks God. Iam sincerely appreciate it. Thank You Darling...

To my beloved Longue Sarah Eleanor...

2008-01-26T00:33:00.000+08:00

Ketika pertama kujumpa denganmu

Bukankah pernah kutanyakan padamu kasih

Takkan kecewakah kau pada diriku

Takkan menyesalkah kau hidup denganku kasih

Memang kau bukan yang pertama bagiku

Pernah satu hati mengisi hidupku dulu

Dan kini semua kau katakan padaku

Jangan ada dusta di antara kita kasih

Semua terserah padamu aku begini adanya

Kuhormati keputusanmu,

apapun yang akan Kau katakan,

sebelum terlanjur kita jauh Melangkah,

kau katakan saja

2008-01-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

During last moment, getting the Only "A" for UTs for the entire RP life!! So pathetic me!! hahaha!! Give chance lar eh....hahaha!

Anyway, buddies have yet plan for outings...Its about time lar eh, since FYP is going to come to an end soon!! Cant wait for it. Sarah, what's your plan for buddies next??!! Hmmm, chalet?? sentosa??ECP?? or your house- karaokeING?? masak2?? wuhoOo!!! we'll see...

hmm silat..Silat siLAt. I just hope we all can make it to K.L. Jgn tak jadi...nanti sombody hampe giler wa cakp lu...hahahaha!! and i'll be much appreciated if my dear sarah can join us to KL. Tapi kene pakai duit sendiri la yer...takpe2 pinjam zul.hahaha!!

Anyway2, i need to finalise my fyp product lar...Iam still not satisfied with it. cerewet lar aza..macam bapak dier jugak! heheh!
ok chiow!

2008-01-17T15:24:00.001+08:00

DURING THIS STRESS MOMENT OF FYP, A SOFT TOUCH CAN MAKE A VERY HUGE BLAST.

SIMPLE WORDS TO ANSWER ALL THE ISSUE. TIME TO CHILL EVERYONE.

2008-01-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

Well..Well..
TaKinG thIS oPpOrtUnIty To Wish EveryOne A Very Happy New Year!!!!!
WelComing 2008 WitH oPen aRms!

This year celebration was Xtra SpeCiaL With Sarah & the Buddies At East Coast Park!!
Wanted to do Fishing there,Didnt but NevertheLess Had a Great Time There..
Everyone of us Had Sparklers in our Hands 5 mins prior to 12 Midnight & watch The FireWorks at Marina Bay when its Already Midnight & pLayed with the ColorfuL Sparklers.

2007-12-30T19:59:00.000+08:00

2007 haS beeN a wOndErfuL YeaR fOr mE.

Besides the FINAL YEAR PROJECT..AHhHhHhH!!!DonT TaLk Bout iT!!
The PaSt oNe YeaR Has Also Been An Eye Opener FoR Me & aLoNg the Way I learnt mOrE..
PeopLe Come & Go iN My LiFe But Im VeRy GraTeFuL That i gEt TO Meet Nice & WonDerFuL PeoPle..

4 mOre WeEkS TiLL sCh eNds..
Been GoIN oUT aLot During the HoLiDayS wIth None OtheR ThaN SaRah & The BuddieS!!
ThE List JusT Keep On Goin...
LooKiNG FoRwArd To SpenD tHe New Year with Them..

2007-12-23T00:21:00.000+08:00

BeeN QuiTe BuSy With LoTsA sTufFs Lately!!!!

Short Trip to MalaccA.
cLaSS cHaLeT.
HeLpinG oUt wIth The KorbAn oF tHe SheepS.
oUting With Buddies AnD a WhoLe LoT mOre.....

Will UpDaTed ReaLLy SoOn WitH pHoTos!!!!!!

2007-12-11T22:26:00.000+08:00

FYP is StreSSing me Up AgainSt The WaLL
HoLidAys/cLaSS cHaLet juz Ard tHe CorNer..
Been CatcHing Movies foR thE pAst Few WeeKs to DeStreSS..

WeekEnds Has Always Been A Fun One!!!

AfteR caTching The Golden Compass with saRah last FriDay, meet up with Umar & Kholique and decided to meet eDDy @ West Coast Park to go Fishing..
Didnt sLeep the EnTire NighT..
Caught QuiTe a NumBer Of Fishes in the Early MorNing..

ThiNk Im gOIn to Go FiShIng DuriNg tHe HoLiDays..

2007-12-08T10:29:00.000+08:00

I guess it's about time i update the blog with some photos ryte?? Especially from the Flame Awards though it is way way overdue...

2007-12-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

Flame Awards Last FriDay nite was ToTaLLy AweSoMe!!!!!
Was a single man for a few hours...Hehehehe
Sorry Sarah, but u will always be my girl..

Was all dressed up with the theme being Mafia Night..
The food was great...
Not ForGetting Agent ZahRaN stole the whole tub of chocolate ice-cream..
And according to Big Boss Zul,agent Zahran "naik pangkat or waddd"
The dancing was madness,i enjoyed myself totally...Oops!!! p.s sarah,nothing happen okay..

Photos will be up on the next post..

2007-11-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

DO YoU knoW ThaT Men Do noT loSe StruGgle in liFe beCause oF hoPE?? A hOpe for something beTter?? a hoPe for Something bEtter fOr tomoRrow?? But SomeTimes Our of Life Is nOt tHat easY...hmmM noThing in life is PerfeCt rigHt??NotHing alWays goEs thE waY we WaNt iT to Go riGht?? SomeTimes We FeeL ThaT lifE iS a RoutiNE and ThinGs are Worse When you fEel you Dont Have The AnsWer anD yoU aRe sTuck in a Hole....SoMetimeS we Do mistakes tHat we Ourself Dont reAlise it...rite?? SoMestimes People may miSslook our teArs aS SaliVa that can be SpIt anywhEre you like...rite??

MaYbe PeOple DonT reaLly unDersTand Who wE reallY are except Ourself Lar hah..;)

PS: Today photography class~ Iam so dissapointed in my photos!! really sad!

I really miss you dad

2007-11-11T23:28:00.000+08:00

Im GoNnA staRt uPdaTing my Blog SoOn!!!

What have i been doing during the one week term break??

I've been eating aloT..wOOhoo!!
I waNNa grow fat baby!!

ChaLet,
SaLam LeBaran DinNeR
StEamBoat DiNner @ ChoNgpaNg,
BuFFet DiNNer at RoYaL PLaZa on ScoTTs,
HoMe StLyE BBq at Sri ChomeL coRRidoR..

And I hope Lots mOrE tO cOmE...

Im HaVing Such A gReaT TiMe..

TmOrRow bacK to schOoL!!!

MaNy Thanks to Sarah's FaMiLy for the DiNneR @ RoYaL pLaZa On ScOtTS; CaRouSeL

BuDDieS, I LoVe YoU guYs!!!

2007-10-11T01:32:00.000+08:00

Well...well...well...

ape sey..emo me!!

IGnore my previous FeW posts lah...it's JusT crap! haha!

Aite2...iam like talking to myself rite Now eh...

nevermind, iT oK,,,

rAYE This SatuRday!! WOHoooo!!!

i'VE NO idea what Iam DOing rite Now....

NeVer go fOr FYp meeting this morninG bEcos I've Alot oF weRK to dO at hOme and mArket..

JuSt finisH my ChopP2 job!! At tHiS Time seh!!

luCkily zUL was KInd enuF to aCcompany me till 12AM!!

tHanKS aLOT zUL!!

It was FUn tO werk wIF him juS now...

BEen lisTEning and SingIng raYE sonGs to eNtertain ourSelf...

wOkay lar...tomoRrow schoOlinG SeH!!

MaYbE pOsting rAYE SOnG might BooST e MOoD... :D!

2007-10-07T02:04:00.000+08:00

Maybe its time to let u go....;-)

I can see the pain livin' in your eyes

And I know how hard you try

You deserve to have so much more

I can feel your hurt and I sympathize

And I'll never criticize all you meant to my life

I dont wanna let you down

I dont wanna lead you on

I dont wanna hold you back

From where you might belong

You would never ask me why

My heart is so disguise

I just cant live a lie anymore

I would rather hurt myself

Than to ever make you cry

Theres nothing left to say...

But good-bye

You deserve a chance at the kind of love

I'm not sure I'm unworthy of

Losing you is painful for me

I dont wanna let ya down

I dont wanna lead you on

I dont wanna hold ya back

From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguise

I just cant live a lie anymore

I would rather hurt myself

Than to ever make you cry

Theres nothing left to say...

But good-bye

You would never ask me why

My heart is so disguise

I just cant live a lie anymore

I would rather hurt myself

Than to ever make you cry

Theres nothing left to try

Though it's gonna hurt us both

Theres no other way...Than to say good-bye

woHOooo!!!!

2007-10-04T23:50:00.000+08:00

Seumur hidup aku

Ini yang pertama

Pintu hatiku diketuk

Oleh dua wanita

Punyai ciri selama ini ku cari

Berbeza wajah ayunya tetap asli

Kalau ku pilih di sini

Apa kata di sana

Kalau ku pilih di sana

Di sini akan terluka

Perlukah aku pilih keduanya

Bahagi kasih adil-adilnya

Sungguh ku merasa resah

Untuk menilai sesuatu yang indah

Namunku ada pepatahYang aku gubah...

Di sana hanyalah menanti

Sampai bila pun ku tak pasti

Bertanya khabar melalui tinta

Jarang sekali bertemu muka

Namunku tahu dia setia

Dan di sini tetap menunggu

Berada jelas di mataku

Kasih tak luak terhadap aku

Sanggup menunggu kata putusku

Sayang ketabahanmu menawanku

Ku terima satu nota

Ringkas tulisannya

Dia sedia undur diri

Dan memaafkanku

Katanya anggap ini satu mimpi

Yang datang sekadar...

Untuk menguji...

Ya...Allah
Tunjukkan Jalanmu Ya...Allah....

2007-10-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

The month of Ramadhan,

A lot of uncertainties,
A lot of tears,
A lot of pain,
A lot of suffering,
A lot of confusion that I myself can't carry

Being aware that Iam just a normal guy with normal heart
Being aware that I've made plenty of mistakes and plenty of sins
Being aware that I hurt peoples and I do make them cry
Being aware that Iam at fault for everything that I've done
Being aware that sincerity can cause disaster
Being aware that sacrifices is not the only factors

Through this month I hope that HE show me the light of pathway that I need to follow
Cause' I dont have the power & the energy to cope with this life but only through HIM,
ALLAH, the Almighty.

Azhar.

2007-09-28T21:29:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum

After soOooOO Looong sleeping in grave!!

It's time to wake my blog up!! heh!!

Nevermind2...I'll start the ball rolling back again....hmm. Things to update this week,

erm...when for RPMCG IFTAR!! Good Job done commitee members...

I missed my selatrans alot lar...

What else....oh yah! DONE with my PP assesment!! WOOHOOO!!! ConfERm PaSs fOr Sure lar hah!! Next things to do.. 4 more CE points seh!..( pathetic me!)

oklah...that's all.

I'll end my latest entry with a picture of my twin sibling...cute seh haha!!

2007-09-16T05:41:00.001+08:00

Ramadhan

Naluri kita manusia
Selalu leka
Hanya sujud dan sembah
Padanya jua

Kini engkau ku datangi
Berserah kehitaman masa
Nan silam

Ampunan Mu kuharapkan
Tiada daya... aku menghindarkan
Kesalahan dan dosaku
Hanya Engkau Yang Tahu
Di Ramadhan ini kabulkan doaku

Suluhkanlah cahaya Mu
Di malam yang penuh syahdu

2007-09-13T01:29:00.000+08:00

Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Puasa

2007-08-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

She so understanding to me lar!!!

FINALLY, i've one balance relationship...err what's that suppose to mean huh??

Nvr...

the bottom line is....

I love her...OR shd i say...

i love her family too....

hah!

I'm at mum's place....eh! no...her mum's place.....

Daddy please stop smoking...it's bad....hah!!

Klau die dapat tahu..mampos aku!! heh!

till then...

2007-08-06T23:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SARAH ELEANOR...!!!

She turn 21st today!! Not forgeting our two months aniversary!! YOU KNOW WHAT SARAH!! I am really2 the luckiest guy on earth to know you and even to get your love dear..! For the past two months, you've been there for me, accompany me for wherever and whatever I do. Thank you so much dear. You've been a very GOOD girlfren to me dear. Appreciate it a lot!! Hope you enjoy the outing just now okays!! Well not much time left before it the 12 am....Till then....LOVE YOU!!

2007-06-23T16:29:00.000+08:00

LAst thursday was a blast!!

I can't believe it...CIK MAIL & CIK SALMA treat us four( Mai,Raudah,Asmin and me) to this FAMILY INTERNATIONAL BUFFET located at Tampines Mall. I am so lucky la... Anyway, they already promise to treat us...ehem2 the gold medalist i mean. Hee~ At first i am so surprise cause* i thought it will be just a normal treat but end up to be kind of grand* treat ( I even wear a slipper there). So yah, I don't wanna waste time...

Lets see the pics and u'll noe what i mean...

Thanks a lot to CIK MAIL @ CIK SALMA for the treat!

Appreciate it a lot man!

CHIOW!

2007-06-22T15:36:00.000+08:00

Helooooo....

Im updating! im updating!....

Erm...basically alot of thing i wanna say but i guess i keep short and simple lar k.

About the IVP 2007...yeah iam like so proud of myself lar!...but i guess without the support from u guys, i'll lose for sure! Although IVP 2007 already over for the past few weeks back, I really need to thanks you guys lar eh. Especially, the captainS of Selatra, FIRDAUS, DD, ASHIK and the Guru of Selatra,CIK MAIL & CIK SALMA...Without them teaching me the proper techiques of silat, Iam sure I won't be able to fight well![ well or waDD??] Erm not forgetting my beloved SELATRA & MCG members. Without you guys, RP Silat won't roar at NUS...hahaha!

To her....erm I really appreciate you coming to NUS that day..

Maybe, that's the reason why I got gold huh...hee~

till den...

CHIOW!

2007-06-01T16:07:00.000+08:00

Nothing to do...so i drew again!!!

ha ha!

this time round is some unknown cartoon character..

cool rite!!

HAHAHA!!

2007-05-28T16:29:00.000+08:00

Bored in class....so i drew this lorry...Cool huh...Yadayadada...

2007-05-17T05:15:00.000+08:00

Heloo people!

It's 5:15 Am! I can't get myself to sleep right now! and later i need to go to school again! Sigh...

The best way to kill time now is blogging...besides doing some revision just now.

Erm, to start with, i've got UT this afternoon. I'm not that worry for this UT so much cause* probably this module is more to thinking skills and theory based rather than calculations and mathematical, thus, I'm OK with it. So yah, not that stress I "suppose".

Erm, follow up with silat after UT. Till now my REGU movements is so awkward and I've started to panic like crazy cause* IVP is just around the corner..arGGG! I really need to polish up my Regu man...erm fine..fine fine!

Forget about silat stuff cause* I wanna tell the whole world that I'm super delighted right now cause* the one that I love so much has already been discharge from hostipal. My grandmum has been warded for like 5 days and now she's back. Alhamdulillah.

As i grow older, my distance with grandmum is getting farther and farther. Now than I realise it. I hope she know that I love her so much although i didnt say it that often. She's not only being a good grandmum but also a great mother to me and to all our family members...

Alright2...before anythin happens, i wanna stop here.

GoodMorning,

Chiow!

Hey you! Trust me....I miss you!

2007-05-04T14:34:00.000+08:00

helOoo...

Sorry for not updating yah...Maybe Iam like too happy with my stuff till I forget to post anything lar hehe...

So yah, I when to science lab yesterday! Thanks a lot to Firdaus for lending me his lab coat yah...It's been like years since I enter science lab... Engineering student entering science lab??
Anyway, I had fun....washing the beakers! hah!

Aite2...shall ubdate soon

Gonna be 6p soon..

chiow!

2007-04-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

First FYP meeting and I am late..waWAWAWwa! but it was fun lar...especially with my teamates...we end up chatting and chatting instead of doing work...err not them lar..its me that got this big mouth! hehe! I can't wait for the next meeting...I believe in you gals ok.. ;)

Then I went to silat(SLA rehearsal thingy)...again as usual..I am late! hah! But end up feeling very satisfied cause' I manage to memorize the REGU! Super satisfied! We will be training on thurday and friday as well...I need the confidence cause' till now I still feel quite weird cause" being into seni...hah! Azhar in seni??

And yah! know wat? I was in the taxi that day...and suprisingly the driver ask me whether he can smoke...I just say yah...cause' i don't really care about it...and he really light up he cigarette..hah! Luckily I was alone...if I was with my girl friends...I don't know what will happen lar..hah!

Oklar..I need to rest for now...I am super tired lar..

that about all for today

A small kid haven't seen his friend for quite some time...He miss that person a lot...But once he bump onto that person...that person ignore..hah! Maybe that what life should be huh?...You will lose your friend one day....Cool huh?? yah that cool..

chiow!

2007-04-17T18:12:00.000+08:00

What A day!!!

I can't make it on the second day of school??! What the hell!! It's only like yesterday that I make a promise to myself that I won't be skipping school....but today, I was so unfortunate Lar... Haiz! I was like spending my whole night in the toilet...Diarrhea! I can't remember whether I sleep there too hmmm... Thanks God, for now I am Ok...but yah I missed school..

Moving on, it's FYP time...I'll be in school tomorrow....hmmmI don't really know what will happen...cause' it's the first time for us to gather and meet...err I will just hope for best of our team...

Silat?? Yah...I am joining ReGu! I find it challenging to memorize those 100 steps... I guess I can make it...err nah2..I need to polish it more...I really need the help from Cik Mail and the girls...Ouh yah...they are superb!

That's about all for now...

I just wanna say that right now...I've got a very good friends to be with...and I appreciate you guys a lot...whoever you are...I'll be lonely without you guys..I just love all of you...Thanks God..
Hmmm alrite2..
Chiow!

2007-04-12T03:35:00.000+08:00

SeKoLaH DaH NaK BuKaK! HaPpy2 TaK HaPpY RaSeNyEr..ArRGgG! AsAl Aku BeRbuAl MeLaYu Nie...ApE2 aJeLah...

2007-04-05T03:09:00.000+08:00

Moving away...to give space. He's confuse...DOn't wanna make things even more complicating...So he shuts...

2007-04-03T12:20:00.000+08:00

HELOoo..

JUst finish my drawing....It's related to the song actually...
Alrite2....take care bye!

chiow!

2007-03-30T23:15:00.000+08:00

HeloooooOo..

Last Monday I watched this Indonesia Drama..."HIkmah 2" There's one thing about this story that I like so much...It's the personality of "Ana", a good role model to be...as a woman as well as a wife…hmmm. For me, it's hard; it's DAMN HARD to find a woman with that type of characteristics nowadays. An intelligent woman that always bring good thing to her husband, a religious wife that always want her husband to get near to God at all time...a woman that show brightness in her face whenever her husband look at her...a wife that always remain calm despite any obstacles and the most importantly...a wife that always be there together with her husband to sincerely share the Ups and Downs of life without fail. I say wow! It's definitely my Dream girl!! That's a true love to be lar...rather then having a wife that only pity his husband instead of loving him...a wife that only see gold, money, LOOKS! Luxury! To me that's very immature...! I hate this kind of girl...I HATE YOU!

Hmmm…hey MaRyum!! 6 weird thing about me huh?!

1~Firstly, I was born with my sister...weird?

2~Hmmm I LOIKE silver accessories. [I lost my silver chain!!]

3~I am guy with weird character...I might be kind but I might also be violent...I might be good guy...But I might also be a bad guy... [To the guy that I hate so much...if you talk bad about me behind my back and I get to know it...I will definitely punch your face in front of silat people…Cos I don’t care who you are!] and I'll always hide my character to people...only close ones knows me well.

4~I keep asking myself...why I prefer a girl that wears tudung cause* I feel that sweet...but the weird thing is, I am not even religious at all but why I still prefer them? Why?!! It's a drastic change in me since last year...I don't get it myself.

5~I dare sacrifice myself for my family and friends...I feel really bad to break a person heart...I'll feel guilty after that...[very soon]

6~Lastly, I've started continue back my hobby of wearing an eyeliner frequently...haha! I don't know why Lar but three weeks ago, it started again after I lent Mai's eyeliner…Haha! I feel its cool lar...But its weird lar...and now whenever I wear, Umar will join in…yeah...and Zul having his own eyeliner toO...coOl huh! [Tx sis!]

That's about the entire list that supposedly to be weird about me...weird?? Hmmm

And yah, the lucky ones that I want to really know their weird things are
Zul, Sri, Malini, Zohra…
You guys don’t have to do it if lazy Lar...Haha! Okays...

Ps* OMG! I MISS MALINI, ZOHRA and RISH!!! HAHA! Serious shit man!!

RAndom Pic! HaHA!

Chiow!

2007-03-24T04:36:00.000+08:00

HelOooOOooo...Hahahaha!

It’s like 2o days. I haven't been updating any single thing...despite the fact that I have lots of fun and enjoyable outing with my buddies’ larRR...yeah! ErrR...I don't feel like typing all of them cause* it's too much lar!

Basically...I gonna say that I'm officially 20 year Old!! And I am old! HahaHA! Thanks a lot to everyone that wish me that day...Gagaga! And surprisingly my Ex-Girl [Fida] still remembered my birthday...~hehehe

Hmmm...What else...Ouh yah...to my buddies...I guess I am getting closer back to you guys...yeah!!With them around...I'll surely laugh till tears…cause* we'll definitely do crappiest stuff laR! And yah!This week...I've been to JB with them like three times! The food!!! The Movies!!
Bowling!!! Karaoke!!!And the freedom!!! Hahaha!

Took a lot pictures’...and yah...One thing I notice about Malaysian girls with tudung*...ehemmm! They are sweet ofcoZ but errr most of their BF have mustache!! Arggg! I don't like lar....Misai..MISAI!! Abg Misai...Abg Misai!!...WTH!! GO Shave lar boy! At least keep the beard Lar...Whatever Lar eh....
Speaking of girls, I met a new friend. a very sweet girl. And i can consider myself lucky to know her.thankz zul! Heehee! And this is one of the reasons why i DONT UPDATE often Lar…ehem2...!

And she's visiting Singapore soon. Real soon.yippie...

EMmm some of my design I've create hehe!...First time to create a so called batik designs* lar!

Enjoy..although it's not that nice err...

I wish I can design a Baju Kurung For my GF..GAGAGA!!

Till then…Chiow!

2007-03-03T01:36:00.002+08:00

Salamz To All.

First of all...I really hope that Danial is joking...Haiz! WTH!! Well, it's ok if he studies there…but not migrating there!! Emmm...nah I don't think he'll migrate...right Danial?? Yah…I know opportunities doesn't come that often in life...If he think that's the best decision he made...I can't do anything lar...I'll support you bro!...I just regret not being able to send him off at the airport that day...I overslept! Haiz!

Fuh!! Life is so much of uncertainties...Sooner I'll see more people or even my friends heading their own separate ways...Sooner, I'll be working...getting married...having children...having a family...Sooner I'll see failures!...goals! I need to prepare for the worst...Woah! By looking into the mirror...I see more facial hair growing!! I am getting older!! I am into twenty of age!! I've to thanks God for my health till this period of time (Alhamdullilah)...and hope that I'll still be healthy throughout my life...despite the fact that I know there's ups and downs in life that I need to bear...

EmMm...imagine if I enter University??? I'll be the happiest person on earth seh! What a dream...! I just realize that some people already being spoon feed by gold spoon from young...and they don't really understand what's the meaning of hardship...They get whatever they want...and this really affect their character as a whole. They tent not to think about others feelings and expecting more from others...just to make them happy...they waste theirs money buying unnecessary stuff...shopping here and there...trying their best to change their looks...even that plastic surgery thingy...hah! To me, I really hope that this kind of people change their character and stop hurting others with their act and words...I really hate this kind of people...haha! I better mind my own business Lar...haha! It just boils me up...

Oh yah! Went out with my buddies! Zul! Umar! And Eddy! Not forgetting the GPA's cast! The NYJC! The scoring points! Haha! I scored the most! According to Zul..."Everyone Seemed To Be Pretty"...It's true lar...haha! That girl in train! Super hot! But bloody hell Zul...Bring my reputation down!! Haha! Anyway, it’s cool! Cause* I am not into any stupid relationship at the moment... Buddies! Please stop me from judging girls only their looks... For this, I really hate myself... Zul says,"Some girls are just like Ferrari cars with Toyota engines!" It true lar! cause* only look nice from the outside and not from in the inside...haha!

Anyways, Zul got great photography skills haha! Just because he took my pics Lar! HAha! Take a look!

Chiow!

2007-02-27T04:49:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum

Hello guys...I guess it's time to update...
It's already 450am...Haiz HAiz haIZ!!!...I've been thinking about my life, my health, my future, my family so much. Fuh! Time is running damn fast yah. It seem to me like it's only yesterday that I just enter poly, but now I'm into year three already. I am super worried about my future Lar... After poly life I don't know where I should head to beside NS! I need a degree to at least end up my school life man! I don't want to end it by just getting a diploma cert only! What a waste of my time Lar. I've been searching for Australia University just to check the tuition fees and stuff. I need $25000 man!! I really can't afford it at this period of time. Headache! By hook or by crook I need to use my own money to get a degree! Arggg...I don't think my parents or even my grandparent can help me on...even if they can...I really don't have the heart to let them pay for me. Fuh! Malaysian University?? Indian University?? Argggg!!! It's not that I don't want to try local University, but it’s just that I can't really make it here... But I've been thinking...SIM? Part-time student for 5-years??...Hah! I don't know Lar...very confusing. In Australia, I don't need to worry about where I should stay because according to him* I've got place to stay...hmmM! If Malaysian University, I don't know whether it's recognizes world wide lar..If it's in India...communication problem!! You know what?! I better stop talking about my future! It's making me go crazy and wild...even while typing! ARRgggGGgggG!

Okay Lar...for the past few days I've been smiling, laughing, crapping! It's been so great and fun to mingle around with family and friends since I'm single...Haha!! Been to mum's place and when to swimming pool!! Ahh that Jacuzzi was super cool!! Mum's neighbors got this super huge dog…damn scary but the dog is so beautiful...it’s exactly like the dog in "lassie the film" Nice right! But unfortunately I can't touch it. Hmmm, beside her house...I've been to SAF Yatch Club! Oh my God! The candle light dinner! The food! The BIg orange PraWns! the crayfish's tail meAT! The limited crabs! Haha! yummy2! Not forgetting his* speed boat modified with his super cool sound system! Power Lar~! And I get the chance to hold the steering wheels and moving aimlessly! Haha! Not that complicated to be the captain hah! Hehe ya right!

Not forgetting my buddies! Zul, Umar and lots more! Danial not in Singapore...will meet him when he come back Lar...To ZuL and Danial, I know I'm wrong cos* I'm moving far from you guys lately. There’s this stupid reason that I've made to cover up my act...Definitely, I miss the fun that we had last time...HAha! The KL trip, the JB trip, the bowling trip. Lots more Lar eh! So, right now I want to prove to you guys that I'm back to the normal me already!! Haha!! Oh yah! Normal me without cigarrete…Oppz! I'll be meeting you guys often I guess...when is JB trip huh? heh!

Enough said already...later I got Silat lei. I haven't sleep yet lei..haiyo! I'm thinking of going jogging with Mai and maybe other silat friends...Mai is fat! haha! Seriously I'm kidding mai! Hehe!
About jogging??? I'll make the decision later cos* right now I need a rest first!! haha!

chiow!

2007-02-22T05:16:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum!

AchoOoo!
Down with terrible Flu! Four panadols at one shot! What a day. Still have the time for blogging huh?? Heh...I guess I am losing weight this holiday! I hate this...I don't want to be less than 60kg! From 63kg down to 61kg…And now?? haiyo! Teach me how to gain weight people! Haha! Been eating only 1 meal per day! More worst, at times I only eat junk food...ouh yah today I ate 2 oranges, three packets of M&N chocolates...and few cups of Nescafe and a can of Pepsi...No rice!...I don't have the appetite to eat la! haiz...( I am reaching for that Green apple in the fridge later...heh)

Haha! I just did some research about the food that I eat... Surprisingly, some food can improve my mood and brainpower...Oily fish like salmon, sardines and mackerel help the brain function more efficiently...hmmm I don't know about that. Ouh yah, caffeine in coffee, tea and cola drinks can cause anxiety, depression and nervousness. Err whatever it is...all I know right now is that I am having a very unhealthy diet lifestyle...hah! I've skipping breakfast lately! And that's really bad for me lar...haiyo.

Well...in case you guys wondering what's well-balanced diet looks like…emmm yah take a look at this~
A well-balanced diet includes food from the five main food groups. These are:bread, cereal (including breakfast cereals) and potatoes (starchy foods), fruit (including fresh fruit juice) and vegetables, meat and fish, milk and dairy foods, and fat and sugar.
ps: wanna know more...go do your own research lar!!...hehe!

Since I post it online...hah I better be sure that I eat well... Btw, I need at least 2500 calories intake...just to balance my food?? I'll just try la...heh.

I am Smiling...=)

tHe suN Going To risE soON! THe alaRM Is rinGIng!
CHiow!

2007-02-20T00:30:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum

How's the drawing above! Cool right?! haha! I wanted to draw my own portrait but end up like that…But not bad lar...it only takes me like 1 hour plus to finish it... Not too much effort I suppose.

I watched Indonesian movie on TV just now. Upon looking at the rural scenery there, I wanna tell you guys that I Miss Indonesia so much!! The kids! Fuh! They might be waiting for me this holiday but sadly I can't make it dear. I promise them that I'll be coming during this holiday but unfortunately I've got important stuff to do here.. :( InsyaAllah...I will meet you guys there soon..

Kids just make my day! Yah playing around with my boys...haha!
They just love video games! Even my laptop's games! haha! Btw, have I mention to anyone before that I prefer boys* than girls...ouh yes.[*kid eh..not big guys!]
Maybe because surround me I only see naughty and stubborn girls...haahaa! Only the boys listen to his abang...haha Just love them. Not that I don't like girls...I like them too!

Haiz! Actually I've been listening to AA gym song from the start of my blogging till now. Only to god that I get the calmness that I've wanted...Alhamdulilah.. Because of that conversation that he had earlier on...he's so down. Why must He still love someone that keeps hurting him although he knows that particular someone don't even care about it? Haha! Why must He still miss that someone so much although he knows that particular someone don't even realize that he exist? Coolness huh?! Why must he unintentionally let out tears in front of that particular someone although he knows that, his precious tears that he have doesn't mean anything to that particular someone at all? This is what I called madness! Haha! I guess this guy is damn stupid fella la. Sacrificing what he got just to make that special someone of him to be happy?? For what?!! She not even happy and comfortable with you although you are! Maybe she hate you...come on!Look into the mirror you dumbo! You are a useless toy! Shame on you! Seem like I am so angry with him eh..haha! Forget about him la...eh

HAH!..He just can't move on *cause to him if the love still there....he'll keep waiting for her...and he wanna apologies for any harsh words that he says...

Well this song rocks my sock!! Maciam pernah dengar aje sentence nie! Muahaha!

Here's the lyric!

Jagalah Hati
Jaga.. Jaga... Jaga... Jaga... Jagalah hatimu

Jangan... Jangan... Jangan biarkan kotori hatimu

Jagalah hati jangan kau kotori

Jagalah hati lentera hidup ini

Jagalah hati jangan kau nodai

Jagalah hati cahaya illahi

Bila hati kian bersih, pikiran pun kian jernih

Semangat hidup kan gigih, prestasi mudah diraih

Namun bila hati busuk, pikiran jahat merasuk

Ahlak kian terpuruk, jadi mahluk terkutuk

Bila hati kian suci, tak ada yang tersakiti

Pribadi menawan hati, ciri mukmin sejati

Namun bila hati keruh, batin selalu gemuruh

Seakan dikejar musuh, dengan Allah kian jauh

Bila hati kian lapang, hidup sempit tetap senang

Walau kesulitan datang, dihadapi dengan tenang

Tapi bila hati sempit, segalanya makin rumit

Seakan hidup terhimpit, lahir batin terasa sakit

Alhamdullilah, thanks God for making me who I am today...I don't need big houses, big cars...luxury stuff... Aku bershukur dgn apa yg ku miliki...=) Alhamdullilah.

Assalamualaikum

2007-02-19T04:20:00.000+08:00

testingtestingtesting!! 123!!!

2007-02-18T00:36:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum!

Happy Valentine's DAy to my Grandparent!!! It might be late but yah...I don’t care!
I don’t really celebrate V-day, as a Muslim, we are not allowed yah. Let not say about celebrating it but I just make it as a moment for me to realize the love that I have for people that I really care and sacrifice what I have just to make them happy...although some people don't realize that. I am just being sincere for what I do ;). The up’s and downs’ in relationship is tough! Through trust, patient, sacrifices, true love, true cares,...basically a lot of thing that I need to know to build a stable relationship just like them.=) 5o plus years of marriage...congratz!!
[I really hope that I can spend that day with you but I guess I had a great day the next day ;))...Thanks!]

It’s Holiday!!!Its Working Day!!!..Haha!

Well...I am so lethargic this few days. I dont know why. My chest still hurts!! [Yah after being slam into by big giant that day..haha!!] Nevermind about that. My feet still hurts and that explain why I don’t walk fast...hah! I need some vitamins!!...Anyway I ate plenty of oranges this days...Uncle bought two boxes of oranges and left it in his shop and there I goes eating it non-stop when am bored...so not to worry about vitamins anymore I guess! haha..

I went to Chong Pang Hawker centre in the evening to buy 10 fillet O fish at Macdonald...the kids just loving it! hah! And You now what! I feel like the Hawker centre is being curfew and it’s like everybody vanished without any reason. All shops closed! Except for MacDonald, 7-11, Cheers and some Malay/Indian stalls!!
…I forgot its Chinese New year the next day!!...waliow azhar! haha! My minds just make me go crazy!

Tomorrow is a brand new year!!
Yah..to the Chinese. hehe. So to my fellow Chinese friends, Happy CHinese NEw YEar!! GoNg Xi Fa CaI!

Couple of hours left before I head to work…no sleep!
In the mean time, I chow dulu lar eh..haha!
h

haiz...
Assalamualaikum!

2007-02-12T03:31:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum

Haha! Its 3.32 am!! Am I nutz! heh!
(Actually I was reading some facts...i'll linked it at the bottom..)

Anyway....Do I really look like chinese guy!

Everytime at work...China customers will always approach me first. Fortunately, I can speak some basic mandarin language err well...plus some sign language lar..(in case they dont understand)..haha. At times when I really dont understand them, i'll say, "huh?? i dont really understang you cos' I am not a chinese guy" in mandarin....and they will go puzzle and confuse among themself...thinking that why this chinese fella dont understand me..hah...worse part is, they will make deduction that I am a malaysian chinese..hah. ( malaysian chinese cant really speak mandarin that well isit??) What the hell with this CHina Man! This is SIngapore and Not ChiNa lei! Please spEak engLisH!! ArgggG!

By the way, few days back, there's this funny moment in the taxi...still about my looks...haha.
Driver: where're you going sir?
Me: Yishun Ave 5..chong pang
Driver: Alrite..!
Driver: So you just get back from work?
Me: yah..Part-time job ( while glancing at the driver name tag sticking infront).
Driver: As what?
Me: Butcher...(and the name tag says..."mohd...")
Me: You can speak malay??
Driver: Iam a Malay....

Muahaha!!! To cut it short,we were laughin cos' both of us speak english thinking that we're in diff race...
Damn..he really look like chinese guy lar...! with his grey goatee! fair skin! and he thought that I am a chinese guy toO ! haha!

There's this Hot topic that he brings up...
According to him, he really hates the goverment policy on the Malays. (oppz I dont know about this) He hates the word "Singapore"...cos* according to him it has no meaning unless it's "Singapura". and I feel that the taxi getting real on fire and hot when he bring up the topic on Malay School being demolised and the sad part was...he once studied from one of the malay school that was being demolised. He got this stormy looks when bring up the topic...and his voice! so angry... and the story goes blablabla....
I shall not say anymore....

I managed to search on this topic...Its in malay lar...Take your time reading it...Do read the commentz as well. Its just for you info lar...

http://kudaranggi.blogspot.com/2006/10/peminggiran-melayu-singapura-oleh-pap.html

CheerZ!

Nites...time check 431am hahahhaha!!!

2007-02-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

I wake-up latE.

Miss the buS.
You smell like roseS.

A lot of Questions in minD.

Really.

2007-02-03T01:50:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum..

Snacktreat boys - I wanna fat babe

http://www.acreativedesktop.com/games/funny-animation-video.html

To aLL peOple that seEm to feel faT all the time...theRe's this funny cliP for you guy to watch...

WatcH It!! So funny!!

Maybe you guys have seen this before lar...but who cares! I've got it from somewhere..

nana shhh!=X hehehe!

your ass is wider,

than a bus tire,

of you,

i'm not afraid,

i want a fat babe,

eat me,

a whole pound of steak,

finish your whole plate,

it's ok,

that i want a fat babe,

biggie fries, with a 64oz milkshake,

super size, every step is like an earthquake,

your so wide,

queen of eat all you can eat buffet,

i want a fat babe,

thin girls,

are starving,

for what,

we're carving,

what they say, has no weight,

cause i want A FAT BABE

cherry pie, you got that extra cushion,

thunder thighs, much better for the pushon,

slip and slide, next to you i'm always in the shade,

i want a fat babe, magazines and the movie screens,

say thin is the way to be,

but you can't get some the distance, without some resistance,

cause deep down inside of meee,

your ass, is wider,

than a church choir,

eat more(eat more, eat more ,eat more)

i wanna hear yousay your having some shake and bake,

micro heating is always to make, (don't want a skinny bitch)

allen mac beal, she''s who i hate,i want a fat babe,

tell me whyyyyyyy, your diating to lose weight,

that's not right,

tai bo took a way your extra pounds,

i want a fat babe

Muahahaha!!! I like wide ass oppz..Kidding2...No offence but very funny...i WONDER i can get shade or not...Muahaha!

Alright2..Enjoy..chow!

2007-01-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum!!

Planned to pont* just now...haha...and yah Iam still ironing my clothes at 930am...hehe.
There's this stupid game that we played just now! Fun3! We actually have to guess our friend’s parents and grandparents name...It's so freaking funny lar. We were like laughing out load! First of all, that particular person have to tell the first alphabet of the name*...as well as the syllables .Take for example, "Maria". So that person can only say the alphabet "M" as well as the number of syllables which is 3. The funny moments comes during the guessing period. We just let out any words and guess the name. And in fact, some words are not meant for a name lar..haha. Anyway...It might be unclear to explain the exact game structure to you guys lar...never mind about that...the important part was that we've fun lar.=)) Ouh yah!
About guessing our current crush!! The girls were so sensitive! In fact most of us were sensitive...Even don't dare to say out the first alphabet of the person* names...yah I know it's soO personal...but at least I know somebody into someone and Iam out of my way...to prevent any unforeseen circumstances...and yah I lied about my crush! Muhahaha!! Sorry guys! Frankly speaking I don't have any crush at the moment..Muahaha!! I am a Liar! I have no choice but to lie cos* I want to know people's crush...If I dont say..then others wont say so yah..I lied!hehehe sorry!
Moving on with Silat...I guess somebody not talking to me...Maybe angry with me on something...never mind about that, I am sorry to whom it may concern again...=x[Pdam dengan Muke aku]
Smoking?? oklah...It's hard to quit actually. But I am glad that right now, Iam not addicted to cigarettes anymore...I am not. and its good actually. I am so happy to say that now..my throat hurts alot!=D!!! Serve me right yah!
Hmmm yah! I want to watch "Mohandas Gandhi movie"now!!!! I like!!!
I am checking outZ bye!

I've deleted the recent post...It's ok for me to lose my lungs but its not ok for me to lose my friend. I am sorry.

Iam quiting it.

2007-01-29T01:36:00.000+08:00

AssalamualaikuM

Hah...Before I start of with my normal surfing at this period of time...well its only 1:40 Am, I want to share what I feel right now. I am so pleased with myself [Alhamdulillah]

I start of the day with my chop2* job. I just love my job to the max...but at times I am just too tired to work heh. OK well, Uncle told me that my mum and bro is moving to condo in few days time. I was like woOaH. I was pausing a moment upon hearing what uncle told me.

He smile and says,” Boy, you're young and you also can make it just like her and other people". I know I can make it and I can and will change my own way of living.[InsyaAllah]
I guess the more I go to work, the more motivated I am to achieve what I want. I suppose the enermy that I have to face right now is the "laziness" in me. This goes to other people as well. It's never to late for me to buck up...=)
Holiday is coming again...and I want to cancel off my trip to Indonesia. InsyaAllah, I'll follow Om to somewhere else this coming June. There’s somewhere further to meet her daughter yeaH.
Oh I can't wait for FYP! Oh seriously I am waiting.Hehe. Hmm... Let see what I can do with the team with only one guy. Hmm…Should I just relax and ask the girls do their job…or should I just bully them or hmmm is it the other way round…HAHA.

God just show me the right pathway I should follow right now [Alhamdulillah] =D. I am so thankful to God.

2007-01-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum

Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillaah...

I am Sooooo Satisfied today! It's my first time donating my blood...Iam soooooOOo...proud of myself. At first, I was so scared and nervous about the needle* but then the power of my heart just push my mind into doing good deeds..Chey! I am able to overcome my fear of needle at lastYeaH!. I want to donate again this April, InsyaAllah klau panjang umur.

I skipped stamina training for silat just now! Waste my time bringing running shoe and attire...Heavy..Heavy! Anyway Just now I felt so guilty actually...I disturb a sick* gal friend of mine.I mean she's really unwell lar...she was so piss off with me and really hit n punch my shoulder...It's okay lar..it's my fault in the place...I am sorry ok...I am just teasing you..maybe my intention is to cheer you up...erm yah take care...

Moving on with silat again... Iam so wrong just now to ask a gal to hold the pad! then she get injured!! Oh man!! I am sorry again to whom it may concern okies....I am guilty to you u noe!!I cant really sleep well today...coz i hurt u really bad...You also take care tau!! Haiz...Nevermind2...Silat peoPle strong waDD!!

What else eh..?hmmMMMm Thats about all for today la.. :)

Assalamualaikum

2007-01-22T00:57:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum

Helooo...heehee

I Wake-up late for work just now! Haha..at least I came to help...but yah he got angry. My brother was helping me just now...err he's not helping but accompanied me heh..anyway he's there to cheer me up. At least got some people to talk to yah... As days goes by, I notice that my brother do show some careness to me...even more. Caring sibling huh! ANiway Om and mum bring us to Al-Azhar to eAT just now. I was like HuH* cos i've just eaten Nasi Goreng seH..but thinking back, its been long time since all of us eat together..so yah..agree with it.

To cut it short, hilarious moment happened just now..heh. After knowing Om for quite some time..now then I realise he eat aloT! He ordered a lot of food..only for him..haha! Later he ask waiter* for "lunch box"...and that waiter*bring in "light coke"...then when he said it was wrong and ask again for "lunch box", he bring a guy to serve us...we were like laughin..is the guy deaf or waDD. Maybe that guy name is "YaCcoB"..Haha.

"LuNcH BoX"."LIgHt CoKe"." YaCcOb" Sound the same meh?? haha

HmM

Okla going to sleep soon..TiReDD! I wanna make fUll use of my young energy..

People say I look like my mum...Hmmm maybe lar eh..heh

Performace at NLB

END

2007-01-19T21:35:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum...
Peace upon everyone reading this post.

Peace to whom it may concern.
Peace to whom that hate me.

I am just too tired to blog right now but I think I need to.
Oh mighty God! Please lead me to the right pathway...and show me the right decision I should do and shouldn't. Oh God..please make me strong within me.

I dont know whether I should post this entry in this blog instead of the other unknown blog I have. I guess people DO hate me cause I am doing something very veRy bad..that is to love someone I really CARE of…although I can’t really show it.TAkpelah...biarlah pergorbanaanku ini ikhlas semata2...Aku harus tabah menghadapi lintangan yang berlaku di dlm hidupku ini...InsyaAllah...Allah Maha Besar..DIA Bahkan mengertahui akan apa yg terjadi pada diriku sekarang dan selanjutnya...

There's a reason to all the things I do…
The reason…
To why I enter silat??
To why I "sacrifice-mine"??

To why my blog is name that way??
To why I quite smoking??
To why I keep being single??

U might be surprise cos' only one answer to explain all…
I better shut-up!!!!

[Engkaulah Maha Pengasih Lagi Maha Penyayang] Ya Allah…Ringankanlah kerisauan dan beban yang di pikul oleh hamba-hambaMu Ya Allah...Berikan lah pertunjuk bagi mereka supaya diri mereka tenang bila ingin berhadapan denganMu ya Allah...Amin

How I wish that I could migrate far far away…away from this country and don’t come back anymore…If that's the only way...

aza willing to do it!!!

2007-01-18T03:02:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum

I am hungry!!! First thought in mind heh... Its 3.09AM.I just can't sleep early these days. I don't know why...maybe because in the middle of the night~the environment is so peace~ the best time for me to do my surfing as well as gain my knowledge. My granddad once told me that he learnt well at night...well I guess I follow his style thou.

Oh yah...Just now I went to NUH for my check-up. I took train there alone and I must tell you guys that the train ride just makes me realizes something. About the MALAYS...about the MATs. Sigh*

My race... having tattoos all around the body? Disturbing innocent girls in train?? Haiz...sad for them.[May God show the right pathway for them and for me too]

Later, while waiting for the bus... I saw two MALAY Bapok! So disgusting! When they laught...it was like Hha..Hha..Hha..and not Ha Ha Ha...Funny. When I look at them, they look at me...so I turn to other side to act as if I am looking at other places...then when I look at them again...they still look at me you know! I was like...eeeeeeeeyuckks stop it man! I was praying for the bus to arrive faster seh...heh.

Well I officially have sinus infection although I know it from young lar...and I need to use that nasal spray for like one month...and go for check-up again...I hope this infection will move away from my life after this. InsyaAllah.

End

Thanks a lot. I really do love you dear and hope that we'll overcome the Up and Down of our life together...InsyaAllah.

2007-01-13T02:33:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

helooo...oklah i update. Lazy and tired lar. Its 2.24 Am. Why am I not sleepinggg?? hehe [leh tanye lagi eh] Well..a few things happens few days back. Silat training...OUh yaH!! hahaha..got smelly partner for Silat performance this coming Open House...Hehe!! Sorryla partner...joking only...you know i know lar eh..

Next...about the PP's proposal! It's approved but i haven start clutch in yet..[sound like driving seh hah]...I haven't start my PP yet. All because of the remarks they give. I guess I've wrote too convincing enought till they remark it as if i am doing on some bIg company like that seh..haiyo...Gonna email that guy back just to make it clear. If settle then i'll start fasten up my belt and be ready to speed-up...hehe [driving..driving...]

Ouh yah..I've notice that I've been changing and changing my blog music and it's usually a malay song somemore. Sorry to non-malay cos' u guys cnt understnd lei..Anyway...I heard this unknown song from radio while chopping* just now...The lyric is powerful..Credit for that. Furthermore, it's a Singaporean singer..woah! Hidden talent thou.

Oklah...I'll update when Iam free again okiesss..

For now, take care and enjoy every second of your life okiess..

BYE!

Assalamualaikum

My sister and Me...Its been along time since we both took picture together...

ANyway..the thing haanging behind us is some small artwork of weapons of moroland
Both of Us..nothing to do...Such a good brother I've got...I'll meet u often bro!!
COnfuse me! Teach me how to smile...!! hehe

I've just said I've got good brother...hmm ya Ya..

good laaa...hehehe

END

2007-01-03T04:21:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum

It's 4.25am...busy searchin' somthin...

well i guess i've found somthin to share with you guys

Read it and think about it..=)

This is the story that must be told of an Iraqi baby, not very old.
Lying in her crib one star lit nightHow could she know of those planes in flight?
She lay there quietly touching her nose,Watching her mobile, wiggling her toes,
Oohing and cooing, so sweetly is she,Talking to someone, who could it be?
An angel is standing with her in the room.The baby is smiling, unaware of her doom.
The crib starts to shake and the mobile goes round.And suddenly comes a most deafening sound.
The ceiling drops in, in a second or two ...On top of her crib so she ceases to coo ...
No one knows how long she lie thereWho thought about it? doesn't anyone care?
Is she alive? is she dead? Is she in any pain?Now that you mention it, who knows her name?
Her name is Amal. In English we say Hope.Crushed between the rubble,her tiny fingers start to grope.
Where is my mommy? I love her so dearCome, get me mommy! It's dark in here!
I'm scared and I'm hungry and I can't see my feet.There's blood in my mouth! Give me something to eat!
Where is my daddy? Where's my big brother?It hurts when I breath! Where is my mother?!
How long have I been here? Is this just a dream?I open my mouth, but can't even scream.
That angel appears once again to my side,This time with a tear I plead Why have I died?
Am I alone in my sufferings? No, there are many others.In our grief and our misery, we are sisters and brothers.
Who are we? I ask you ... for what crime did we die?They're throwing a party! Doesn't anyone cry?!
Is it True? Am I nothing?! How could it be?Don't they also have babies, just like me?
It is war they say, of which death is part.How blind they've become, How hardened of heart.
Did someone say hero? To whom do they speak?A victory claimed for killing the weak?!
Why are they happy? Why are they proud?Don't they know that I'm cold in my burial shroud?!
No war has been won; No ifs, buts, or maybes,They've Only Killed Babies!!!!

End

2007-01-02T03:01:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum!

It's a brand new year! Wuhooo!
All rite..
Last year, on the 31st of Dec was Hari Raya Haji. Well, I must tell u guys that I wrap up the whole year with a day of full satisfaction in me. It was my first time helping the mosque the whole day and its was soO fuN.
The day begins early in the morning when I met Danial for prayers. Then, after we successfully done our prayer, I waited for this uncle of mine while Danial when off to meet his Granddad.
I'll waited for this uncle for quite some time cos' he prayed in the West with my bro and I’m in the East thou.
[I've told myself that I'll only start my job only when he comes cos' I need some kick start*]
When he arrived, he played plan b'.
He told me that there were to much chopper there so he bring me to Darussalam Mosque in Clementi. When we reach there, all the sheep have been slaughtered…heh and people were eagerly chopping off the parts for distribution.
I saw Fir....and I remembered that he was chopping of the head* cos' he wants the brain....( Is it nice...sheep's brain?? I dun noe..)
Yah..and I saw u too Eza..heh...(Awak masak ker peRR..gd to hear that but I didn't get to taste it gal…sO dissapointed…heh)
and i Missed NanA haha...I went off and she came..awww. Never mind. Meet you in school den.
Darussalam system and Ghufran was soO difFerent. Darussalam was more like picniC kind-food..radio..and stuff and a lot of family working as a team to clean-off the parts. While Ghufran was more to teenage helpers from Madrasah school- Wak tanjong, Al-Maarif...etc.
I guess Ghufran got more sheep then Darusallam...
Next, proceed to Hasanah Mosque in Teban Garden. When we reached there, they were like cleaning up...so fast. I guess they got less sheep too. So uncle decides to go to Assyakirin Mosque.
Upon reachin' he called the In-Charge (some Uztaz), if they need our help there. You know what...? That guys told him that 70 more sheep in Ghufran have not been slaughter yet...hmmm.
{Dengan tidAK membuang mase, kite pecUt dari Barat hingga ker Timor untuk memberi pertolongan...chey! heh
So yah...we reach there around 1 plus. Chop-chop till Magrib...(6 plus)
Ouh yah...there's one sheep managed to escape from the so called cage and it run all the way to the swimming complex area..DamN FUnny scenes...People were chasing it like crazy! { kecoh bangeet!!}..hehe.
I guess they managed to catch it...lucky them.
Meet new pretty hansome people there. It was FunNNN lar...hehehe{exaggerate mode}
Okay lah...sleeping mode is on the way.
SoO Happy New Year to all..bye
Assalamualaikum

2006-12-30T03:42:00.000+08:00

Assalammualaikum

Hi guys...Its 3.44 AM in the morning and I feels so guilty right now. I've just scolded my friends with harsh words just now. Ouh man!! They don’t deserve that...Iam so sorry. You guys wont understand me...Iam sorry okay.

Tired. That's the only word to describe me right now but why am I still awake?? I keep editing my proposal cos' it exceed the maximum characters...Hmmm. Im so confused. I don't know who Im going to interview on. My mum? My uncle? hmmm I prefer that uncle...but he rather one me to choose my mum instead. Yes I know that IAm not to close to her...but Iam just to scared to get closer to her. Aza getting closer with his mother.Fuh! Dont get me wrong. She’s not even fierce at all to me. Im just wanna say that Love is so complicated, that’s all. From the bottom of my heart, I really hope that by doing so-getting closer with her- I will gain and grow my love for her. Although we wont be seeing each other everyday, but i do hope that one day, we will be seeing each other everyday...

I wanna share a story with you guys. Ever since this boy was a kid, his parent move away from him. All he knows at that time was a grandparent touch*. Only after nineteen years, he tent to realize the mother touch is getting warmer and warmer and he appreciated that although it come late. :)

Okays! ENuff of that. My tears are too free for this I guess.

Move on to my upcoming schedule…Hmmm. Oh yeah!
The good news is I’ll be helping my uncle chopping meat at Tampines mosque this Hari raya Haji..yeah! Hmm I’ve only got 1 years plus experiences in chopping. Can I make it? I guess can lar. No problemo. Heh I guess my hands are endurance enuff for sharp knife yeah.
The bad news is he’ll only be with me a while there and later he need to help the other mosque and left me alone with the other old* choppers!
[It’s not count by KG anymore…it’s okay if it’s 200KG but now its 200 SHEEPS* to chop- that’s what he say lar] Cool habis!
Cut cut cut! Here I come! For mosque sake, it okay with me. Heh.

Alrite lar enough of blogging…Sleeping time!
To Whom It May Concern: Iam so sorry abt jus now…Iam sorry
Assalammualaikum

2006-12-14T01:52:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum...Peace everyone!

Im just damn worn-out!! I Need a break!

All the sacrifices ive made have gone to drain!! DRAIN!!

I've waste my MOneY!!

I've waste my Time!!

I've waste my enerGy!!

I Need a Break!!

I've hurt my friends!!

I've hurt my faMILy!!

I've hurt a lot!!

I Need a Break!!

I need my MUM!!

I need My grandmuM!!

I need my famiLY!!

I Need a break!!

I dont feel like blogging!!

I'LL Still be in teAM.. sorry guys..

I Need a Break!!

HEy!! Iam so Emo Right Now!!
I Need YOU!!

ArG!!
I Need to rest and work later!! but why must i save that large sum of money and burnt it like that?? why!!!!
is there any reasons behind it?? I suppose there are but i'm not sure what...I guess God want me to open my eyes wiDe enuff to see my surrounding...and have to careless about the unimportant stuff that never gonna lead me to any gd outcome...

The time have come for me to realise...
...who I am...to see who cares for me...to see who hates me...to be myself...to be back to sq 1...to be the usual hardworking guy...to be the usual caring guy towards his family...to be the usual guy that cares abt his future...to sacrifice himself just for his family...to be the usual guy that bring money every week jus to make his grandmUm smiles...

I want to be me again!!! I love You GrandMUM!! I really do... Tears*

~In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate~
please make Me strong and leaD Me to the riGHt pathway~Amin

Assalamualaikum

2006-12-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

When out just now...with my old fren danial!!HAhaha...sorrylah bro...Iam BZ with my stuff lah...so cant really lepaK with u guys often... and ZUL too. he's gone to malaysia for holiday and will be back in weEk time..MIss yah. Ouh yah!! RP Dikir BArat will be launchin' again!! and i hope more broZ will be interested in join our teAm cos' insyAllah we'll be performing this comin' Open HOuse...

and...bloody heLL UMAR!!! He smoke my favourite cigaritte ( Sampoerna Mentol) FUH!!!!! Ish!
ANgry man..! Aniwae thanks God Im able to push my mind towards the right decision...i gained back my stamina and dont wanna waste it like that...HAIZ!!! U noe wat?? i nearly smoke just now...lucky me!! I guess.
...den we wnt to raffles place...sit at the bay...and busting our lung OUT laughin' and laughin'...we were like playing some mind games and guessing...and there you go...everybody start getting excited to get the right answer.....our faces will be damn dull if we cnt get the right answer!!! heh
Oklah..nothin much to say...tomorrow insyAllah i'll be working BACK...and i pity him...Iam so sorry uncle...Orite...thats all for today...[like writting Rj seh]
BYE...Take CAring!!
Assalamualaikum

2006-12-06T17:21:00.000+08:00

Assalammualaikum...

Yeah!! Its Holiday!!! Happy Holiday GUys... Wah!! Some of my friends going overseas man!! Thailand lar..Malaysia lar..Indonesia lar..Australia lar...New Zealand lar...CHey bah...so jealous. I can't wait for mine...this March.[the next holiday]

Anyway...I'll still enjoy this holiday. Wake-up late!! ha ha. No RJ!! Haha.

.....PP?? Errr...One BIG problem i need to face this holiday man. Its PP and work. My holiday wont be peace till I face my own music...as a butcher.What else to say...or yah I miss smoking for more than a month i guess...I miss you cigarrete..sob* where you go..i miss you so...ha ha ha

Thanks God...I am becoming more heathier...and with the help of silat's training, i gained back my stamina..yes!

Ouh yah...last saturday..been to NLB for my very first outdoor silat performance...FUN2!! Then, later we decided to go to VIVO CITY...NO need to mention the place lar...damn nice!.

Got the picZ uploaded! At last! Haha...

One more thing to share...I've been asking myself a lots of question lately...and a while ago I've been thinking WHy I hAve tO be JeAloUS wiTH peOple relationshIp??JuSt beCos Iam SinglE??

aniwae2...ENJOY THE PIC!!

Sorry...I dont mean to hurt you guys!!!hehe

We at VIVO....ENjoying uRself..hehe!!

The HAN+SOME Selatra The P+RETTY selatra

END

2006-11-22T03:41:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum...
Peace people..I mean it yah...Coz I dont wanna hate anyone of you guys...ErK!

alegai dologon nologoe walegat helege pelgen tolugu yuluguu....alegai welegi moluguv onlogon balegat alegai welegi alogol walegaes lelegef yulugu...

opps sorry dont understand???...My friend and his family use this kind of language for some secret conversation...and somehow iam able to crack the confusing parts and learnt it ...heehee
Anyway...those sentence suppose to have meaning but anyone of you can crack it...go ahead..

Alrite2...I only came for UT just now...No mood to go school lar...I am too tired....maybe hmmm but I gained back my mood during silat training!!! FUN!FUN!FUN!...I like!

By the way, after Monday’s training, we all when to yunZ house for our last raye outing and.........her brother is damnnnn cute!!! so chubby sehh!! Everybody were like hugging him la..emmm here's the pics...Enjoy!!

KUZ semangat......!!! cute ler!!!alalaaah!

One whole family...the fourth child coming out soon!!!hehehe azaaa!! azaaa! hehe
Yunz's house...eh mai camouflage hehe oppZ.. hehe

EH..where's umar..that ayam boy...haha

HApi ajer amirul eh...! Hehe..meet you nxt year..errr heh

END

2006-11-19T02:36:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum.....Peace!!!
Raya season is coming to an End...! This year season not that bad...Got some green packet thou.[dah besau2 pon ade collection..heh] Anyway...who the hell wont want money...talking about money..Iam so damn BROKE lei...Not need to say eh..You know i know...Today I went for silat training...[mai buih seh! tak datang!!...nah kidding2 she got something on..la] YOu guys know wat...i've learnt some seni( silat cultural movements) today!! SO shiok lar... It's my first time in my life to learnt Seni Silat Pengantin Movement( Wedding Silat)...Damn gerek! Mr Fir tought us the movement lar...and we followed him. Just after knowing only the basic Seni, I feel the excitement and proudness of it. Iniatially, I hate Seni..i prefered OlahRaga(the Fight) because it's more challenging and rough kind of art. But then...with today's training...it just totally change my initial perception of Seni...I tent to like seni tooo! heehee..After all, Iam a Malay..so atleast i should know some of the fundamental malay culture martial art...Yeah yeah. Ouh yah, after training we guys played soccer!! So fun lar today..Its been a long time since i play soccer man..Got blisters under both of my feet seh..[haha Ofcoz lar...never wear shoes] But okayla..fun2!
Enuf of talking...let me show you some of my raye outing with selatra..just got the pic btw..heh
so..enjoy...

Our first house..Shaikhul's house...His family loves cycling i Guess cos' they've got few expensive bike dude!!Cool.

We were at Asri's house...his house has this luxury kind of look..A lots of gold colour..hmmm nice!
Hmmm, this Marya's house...We were laughin'out loud watchin' deeparaya video...oppss hehe!
Ouh yah...nina's house. So huge man her house...Opera Estate or Wad!!
Q-ing up for food...YuMMy2!!!
Qass Me Umar.....What were we doing man...!

Cool!...Me and Aidil...but kind of blur abit..but still cool heh..
Aza nothing to do lar...Play with chilli sauce....hehe but nice huh?
Why my hands like that...wrong post lar aza...
We looked so sad seh...maybe too much food we ate i guess..heh
Yeah..that's all... and its 5min to 4am...haha Going to sleep soon...
Take care bye!!

2006-11-06T00:15:00.000+08:00

Helooo...
Check This Link..."Bunny Suicides"...ENjoy!!

2006-11-01T00:25:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum...peace!

I am blogging again... So not aZa...Its goin to be a long post i guess...I am so bored lar and iam goin to make u guys bored too haha...Thinkin of staying up tonite but dont know wat to do...yeaps oredi finish watchin prison break season 1...emmm season 2??? later can lar eh...aniwae i havnt get it from my fren yet. Ouh yah..reading books the whole nite might be a good idea[tmrw lagi bagus no sch..yeah]...aniwae i need to brush up my islamic knowledge...Talkin abt Islamic knowledge...dammit.. i havent meet up with khairul for quite some time seh...he's really gd lar. Btw he's a fren of mine who can speak few languages u noe!! He can speak and write arab,some tamil,some Java...and other weird2 languages..gd huh..He's my "teacher" lar basically...i do seek to him for some unsure thoughts abt islam...beside other people lar...Sorry eh khairul, i'll meet you soon bro... Yah!Nana..( almost forget my sister...) There's this book that she gave me...but its too deep for me to understand it. I havent reach tat standard yet lar...(pelan2 kayuh lar aZa...heh) Btw..long time nvr see her... Missing her oredi...haha(fren2 onli hah!) Her fault lar...always wif her Bf onli..forgettin me..cry*chey! muahahaha {suddenly i am being so idiotic at this period of time...its 1am aniwae...} but strange sia..I miss a lots of people suddenly...i miss her, him, dad, mum..waduh.. a lot!!
My heart keeps playing around wif me...It's haRD to be a soft-hearted kind of person...chey!! btw... there's tis blind man wanted to pass a message to everybody..."nowadays singaporean are not helpful...dont have the heart..bla bla bla" tats wat he said to me...hmmm true enuff lar, tat day he was shoutin for help as in leading him to somewhere...but almost everybody ignore him...except me lar. Iam not saying it becos iam proud of myself or wat no3...come on man..its jus tat we need to have some heart for the needy lar..Not everyday we get the opportunity to help others rite...Iam so frustrated tat day sia...ish3( thnks god for makin me who Iam today...i will always appreciate my life to the fullest...) HEy i feel like talking and talking and TOKIng to myself rite now... a lots of thing to say suddenly. Abt my class.. its getting more fun lar...planning to go jb and stuff..la shiok!! seh!!...[..emm same like my previous class..but this time round more close guy frens den close gal frens..] ...there's this slow eater guy in class(dont wanna mention his name...later this dragon boat fella will wack me wif his paddle sia...hehe joking only ar saddiq..oppz) Abt this fella...the thing was, instead of starting meeting at 10.15, we go in at ard 10.50... Nah2..it's not like blaming him for us waitin for him to finish food and end getting Bs instead of As...no2 i jus find its some kind of cool way of eating..yeah...I'm sure his digestion system will run very smoothly...hehe[ i Respect him sia..He always finish up his food and can get irritated if one of us cant finish our food] Btw the cafe cheese burger is soo huge mann!...eatin jus a burger in the mornin will make me full the whole day siaa...but i'll strt craving for food in the middle of the nite ar...heh.. Ouh yah..talkin abt food, there's other thing to mention...cigarette!!! Yesh..smoking!!! Hmmm...i dont noe how black my lungs will be rite now...Lately, i've been coughing like hell...cant really explain lar..but my chest damm pain sia...ish3.. emmm thinking abt quiting...( yah rite..aZA-a smoker..quiting!!! muahahaha yayaya) ...people jus want me to die soon lar...{ iam talking rubbish again} hmmm but if i were to leave tis world todae...i think somebody might be very happy....hahah...hu cares aniwae. I need love to quit smokin i guess. Okays...cut tat crap*... Alrite2...bored huh?? hehehe... Ouh yah i miss my long hair...i am goin to post my old pics as a way of motivating myself not to cut my hair so short like...arggg!!...

2006-10-30T15:11:00.000+08:00

Yuck!! tats drawing sucks!! Jiwang or wat!!
Peace...

hmmm, i've changed my skin again...my old skin. Its been a long time i nvr update my blog the proper way...I'm updatin' my other blog actually oppz...Hmmm yah this raya season...at home all this while..didnt manage to go out yet...yah becos of my grandad and grandmom staying at my place..soo people jus come to my house without me going to theirs...hehe. For my grandmum, out of 6 siblings, only left 2 alive...my granny and her sista...So jus imagine the children of diff sibling jam my house..wohooo..and the best thing is, people give me money seh!!!...Haha...I dont need it actually...but they force me to take it..heh.....(klau nak kasi lebih kan sikit ar..) [if u wanna give me..jus give me more lar]..heh
JUst teasing them jer...heh.

Ouh yah..haven meet up wif my old fren for raye yet...I mean old old old frens of mine...hmmm primary sch mates...i will see u guys soon maybe... secondary sch mates?? maybe...

HMMM...moNey MoneY mOney...!! Waduh!....I'm just crave for money at the moment...But..iam so laZy laZy laZy...to WOrk...and very sleepY sLeepy slEepy to wake-up...and yah faci is doin 6p now..hehe..
update a better blog soon...yer..

peace...

2006-10-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

yeah yeah nak raye.....!!!Hehehe..

Assalamualaikum... Peace everyone....

Festive season is here! and i've already enjoy it right now... Well, i guess this year, our preparation will be just normal and simple, we jus dont wanimportant stuff..yeah.

Here's my design for Hari Raya.....

So yah...I wish all muslim Salam Aidilfitri...Pohon Maaf Zahir dan Batin...not forgetin' the Indians out there...Happy Deepavali....hehehe...

2006-10-17T00:02:00.000+08:00

Woah...Helooooo blogger...peace!!

worry
sad
miss
touch
tired
irritatin'
h
slack
happy
her
fun
confuse
still
raye
dikir
friends
home
work
chop
Q
blood
grades
ut
money
clothes

These are the thoughts that are currently crawlling in my heaD rite now...i shall not post it now..cos' i've got some unfinish works to be settle...so yah more posts comin' your way... b tw check my latest design....usin' just paint....

Bored---solution---drawing....

2006-10-02T01:04:00.000+08:00

Punten!! ("Sundanese polite way of saying "may I pass You")
"Mangga" ( Is the polite of replying " You are welcome or you may have the way")

It's 1am rite now and I don't feel like sleeping again. MAybe I'll spend the whole nite doing some research or reading. Alrite...yah MAlini...abt my new class. Aniwae u guys seem to miss me so much huh? heh..i miss you people too man!! Such a caring classmate i ever had...Being there for me at all time...hehe. For you guys to know, i've been attndin only 2 classes till now( been workin my ass out this few days jus to get my daily allowance..preparation for hari raya and those bills..Fuh!) and btw i've an Indonesian classmate! and it's a SHE!! what's that suppose to mean?!...You noe i noe lar eh.. nah nothin actualli...but a lots of potential darlings wannabe in my class...(dont be jealous...muahahaha) Alrite, stop it aza!

Well, this time round more guys then gals in ma class..and yah Suhaila is in my class( been laughin and laughin wif her that day) DOnt be jealous Eddy..ha ha. The class is gettin more fun wif all those jokers. Btw this is my remark for my second day in the class only...dont noe wat will happen later on. Talkin abt darlings, I've not meet a true darling yet...( are you far away from me???...are you in Indonesia..muahahaha) marCH!! Whatever it is, Iam sure My gal will be standing at a highest building u guys can ever imagine(she's the gal tat always care abt people b4 her, always think abt god and always prepares herself afterlife)...and for me to reach there..a lots of preparations, sacrifices and obtacles i need to face...hmmm and i will do it jus for you and god. Meet you there my deaR!! emm in Indonesia!! muahaha who noes eh...

Actually i've got lot to say but i'll just keep it to myself for now..Only God knoes. Tats it for now. BYe..

Punten!!

2006-09-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

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2006-09-23T01:45:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum..
Hellooo..I'm back..heh

okays..first of all..i gonna say that I misss Indonesia man!...Can't wait for the next trip...Two weeks... alots of things i learnt from there...about life and stuff...I'm really so touched wif the people there..Thanks God i'm here.. Actually, i feel proud to be able to adapt to that kind of environment...Being able to see the different side of the world is a gift to me and it opens up my perception of life, love and cares... There, most people struggle not to become rich but to find their daily food... Its not suprising to say that this kind of people dare to kill people..to become prostitute just to get money, food, clothes and stuff...haizzz. What can we say abt it. They have NO choice thou...Crimes and corruptions is everywhere! Eventhough their life feels wif hardship...i have notice that they are happy wif their life...maybe from outside i suppose..nobody knows their inside...I have met an old person, and he's 126 years old...On the outside, the way he walks, the way he talks, he looks like 60 years old grandfather..woah..To me..it's amazing...btw i met him once...9 years ago. and he still the same hIM..long life huh...
Alrite..lets go to picture..but sorry for it's bad qualityUsing my Hp camera lar.. ...{if i have Danial's camera...hmmm}

The Flight
Take off...yeah yeah!!

Up!! Up!!!

Upon ReachingGambir train Station,JakartaMe and My uncle waiting for the train to bandung from gambir,jakarta. 3 hours journey.Funny laws in the train station...people just don't obey the law there indonesia...ish ish ish...A lots of cigarittes' companies sponsoring in Indonesia...Initially i wanted to take pictures of the sponsors but too much..errUpon reaching...meeting my family there...Kp.Karang tengah...I lived here..such a nice place to be...Some houses...The mosque..ur house jus beside a so call mosque(musolla)ahem..This is my girl..err i mean my sis who live there...btw most Bandung's Gals are soo sweet...beautiful people living in that type of area...good things is there are not materialistic type of person..hehe....Weird Food I Ate and MetKelinci means Rabbit...Yups..i ate Rabbit's Sate..taste like chicken actually.. Snake-liked insect..crunchy and yummy...erk..This GreeN apples are so small..as small as a tomato...unique!Looks like sweet but it's belacan...err The Kids ( I love This man..)i was taking some scenery initially, and suddenly kids from nowhere rushin towards me, askin me to take their pics..hehSweet boys..miss You guys...!Sweety..i love this pic...she so sweet..miss You gal!kids..on tree pluckin some fruits..cool.Riskan...smart Boy..SD[skola dasar]'kids..primary sch kids going for excursionCutey princess...heh I liked...The Nature Beauty

Potatoes Plantations

Corn Plantations

MOuntain Putri

Its so beautiful...if U see it for urself...

Terrancing

It sooo nature....

backyards

My Journey To Gunung Berapi's Tangkuban Prahu( Volcanoe)
It's hot but cold..You can feel it...
...i remembered..we forgot to bring water bottle...crazy thirst indeed.. Found a Creepy Cave Deep in the Forest...of the mountain.[built in Aug 1937]

My Air Rifle And Cousin's Bike

Walking around in Ciroyom market...and saw this Air Rifle shop..And i bought one of it heh..
...look at this guy..danger..look out!

Having a Rifle Without The Need of licence is so cool..I bought it for 250,000 Rupiahs( $50.00)

I kill a Yellow bird You know... errr

During some free time... circle the Kampong wif bike...again without licence..heh

The End

2006-09-06T22:09:00.000+08:00

Peace Lovers out there...

Okays...I've change my blogskin.err i think it's nice..heh Well..i've edited this picture which I found in the internet...

Well...tomorrow i'll be gone to indonesia (West Java) for some personal reasons...and not because of teachin' as what Zul mention before. Teachins is some few routine that i suppose to spent my time there...all alone. Yeaps...i wanted to find peace and hopefully can heal my mind through this way...and move on my life through this way...Im damn worried abt my grandmum after which i'll be away for 2 weeks..or if i have the choice..forever. I'll definitely going to miss her terribly...but i've made my decision..C'mon boy it's 2 weeks not 2 years...Yeah i know that...but the power of love will definitely going to kill me even if it's one day without hugging my grandmum.. I will miss you grandmum..i will! Alrite...take care you guys..gals..HER..bye! iam next door hehe..
assalamualaikum...

2006-09-04T05:15:00.000+08:00

Peace..lovers..

It's 5.10 am..I haven't get any sleep yet...All because of the work that I need to do later on...Yeah..i really in need of money so this is the only way for me to continue working tomorrow cos if not i'll end up gettin' up at 1pm.. I've been doing this as in not sleeping and staying awake all day night for few times already ever since this holiday...haizz
This few weeks... alot of kenduri kawin projects need to prepare.Gosh..if ZuL said 20Kg was tiring...how was mine jusnow..190kg[for only one project] Only god knows...I've been gettin the most cuts on my hands this season..but nevertheless..thanks to God that give me the strenght to do what i suppose to do for my family..alhamdulilah.I wish i could share my personal life wif sombody special that would really appreciate me and care for me but sad to say...... It's okay..it's okay...
I hope i'll bring a bright future for my family,My GrandMUM...but I scared..i scared my hope will be gone...forever..ya allah...berikanku kekuatan dan curahkanku rezeki ya allah..

I was born to be like this and i wouldnt want to be like this all my life..insya'ALLAH....
it's 5.54am...jus the right time to go to work...Goodmorning bye..

2006-08-30T14:09:00.000+08:00

Me and My SOns!! Cute Huh?!...all of them opps..hehe
They got soft..smooth..silky..cheek!! so temptin' to touch..
Like Father like Son...hehe..

2006-08-29T00:14:00.000+08:00

hi there...peace!!

I wanna say abt my phone man...damn it..lar. There's this particular person lend my phone and misplace it somewhere. I'm so iritated with him lar. For me, it doesn't matter if i lost the phone but most importantly is the sim card..Anyway it's a prepaid card..Been using this prepaid card for more than 3 years...and i have lost almost 300+ phone no. That's a lot lar...MY goodness...i've lost my old frens's phone no. ARggg..can't contact anymore..fuh!
Anyway i've got brand new phone oredy...and using a postpaid card.. awww man...(new bill need to settle right now) eeeee! It's okaays... Just need to work and work and work..errr..
Right now i just miss my grandmum aloot...i've not been at home for two days oredy been thinkin of her all time.so worry....i need to go home as soon as POsiballl....okies..cheers!

2006-08-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

Hey check this cute Boy...I'm searchin'somthin and found this clip...thinkin' that it might be good for a post...Cheers!

2006-08-22T19:37:00.000+08:00

I just realise that i did somethin'
really bad and it cos'
misery to others...

I feel that..

Being kind is not appreciated...
Being caring is not appreciated...
Being lovin' is not appreciated...

IF FACT...and perhaps

I'm being burried alive
while being stabbed
while being hanged
and
while being kicked
even so i don't need appreciation
It's sincere from my heart..truely
even so i've move on and
even so i'll keep on committing this crime of
being kind
being caring and
being loving for ALL mankind

I'm sorry
I'm sorry

...please be kind caring and loving to
ur frens
ur family
ur love ones and
...please stop hating one another
...disliking one another
...blaming one another
...killing one another
...mad at one another

please encourage peace upon you
pleace encourage peace upon everybody
...anyone
...even the one
that hurt you..

i'm sorry and please smile always..

Am I wrong to love and cares for someone that don't even bother about me at all? am I?!am I?! Deep deep in me, I just don't wanna kill my sense of love and cares i have for them...eventhough people seem to say that "love them only when they love you"

ya Allah..SesungguhNya Engkaulah Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang..ya Allah...

Nabi s.a.w. telah bersabda:
"Janganlah kamu bermusuh-musuhan, jangan benci-membenci, jangan dengki-mendengki, jangan berputus hubungan antara satu dengan yang lain dan jadilah kamu sekalian sebagai hamba-hamba Allah yang bersaudara-mara."

2006-08-21T23:26:00.000+08:00

Hey look at this sign..It says
LEARNING AND TESTING OF DRIVING TECHNIQUES IN THIS CAR PARK ARE STRICTLY PROHIBITED...

Guys Know what...i just took my first practical just now ever since i failed my Tp..few months back...and the next Tp is coming soon!!( wiSh me luck this time!)

The Boss of this intructor company drove me to his private house just to change to his manual car...woah!! His house damn big lar..{ My future House..hehe..inSya'ALLAH} From there...i started to drive...and since then he keep praising me of my driving skill..cos' he expected me of not knowing to drive after few months not practising it..emmm...I was indeed very satisfied..Actually, i failed just becoz of that stupid circuit lar..haiyo...Nevermind that..i wanna say abt this sign board and the instructor. HE damm funny and always use vulgar words seh...and just now, i learnt parking at this multi-storey carpark with this signboard at the side...ha ha.. I pointed to him upon looking at that warning board and u noe wat..he said.."fcuk it lar" i was gigling and secretly managed to snap the pic while he arranged the poles..he he..Okays.. that's about all for the updates for now..more pic comin' soon...

2006-08-20T01:46:00.000+08:00

Check out this malay Track!...this malay Lady!!... Her Voice...!! Oh man!! I like..her alooot lar...i've been searching for this song for months but i didn't manage to get it...last resort..Youtube..hehe Ironically, she's not popular...sad for her...

2006-08-17T02:13:00.000+08:00

Alrite..lets make it short

Today..PCB lesson...We need to go lab. When I reached lab, U noe wat, iam the only student in the class.. DAmn stupid lar...wondering where those guys when too... Then the faci came in, and i was like demanding for 6p in the morning already..hehe To cut it short, few people came in later at 9..and we managed to end the class at 10.30 am.. so cool lar... After that, the class was so bonding together as usuall..[cos we have nothin to do]..so we ate breakfast together and decided to slack at the library... Couple of hour later, we separate sob*..heh
That's for today...alritez...Love Your love ones truely okays..Don't makes them hurt..okies Cheers!

2006-08-17T00:38:00.001+08:00

Salutare...

it's been so hilarious just now...Met my beloved fren again(errr)...i start the day as usual woke up late...and came for the meeting late as well...[wednesday need to go sch for meeting seh..damn sich lar] All becoz of the year one's gal--other days they cant make it..so we have No choice. But fortunately today..i'm not the only guy to handle the meeting..Can't stand one of the gals lar...Keep iritates me. Anyways, i called her 'darling', only to iritate her back lar.hehe..That's about it for the meeting....later meet my frens..ZUL,DAN and EDDY. Eddy thought of treating us..den the freaking tragedy happened..At first,me zul and dan were finding the most expensive restraunt to eat since somebody wanted to treat us..we wanted to go to boat quey..hehe, a meal cost $30,40++..that's expensive man...but it's just a joke actually..Think2..we finally decided to eat at sakura Thai cuisine. When the bill comes..you noe wat..Eddy den realise that his master card lost..WTF..( it's not his plan actually) He start blaming us, by thinking that we plank him by keeping his card..No way la..Fortuntely, Zul have some SUMs to cover up the bill..{eddy always lost his thing since we know him...funny lar} That's not the only case..later when three of us enter the train station, Eddy can't get in..Muahaha...he were like "WTF...there's really somthing wrong with You today man" He uses his train concession 4 times already..and he dun even realised it..By then...we keep teasing him lar..hehe...alrite.. Thats about all..it's 1.33 am and i've got to sleep soon...Cheerz!

2006-08-16T00:10:00.000+08:00

Heloooooo again...

Woah..i jus need to blog and blog and blog....so much time huh? indeed la. Fuh?!! Alrite...straight to the point.... I MISS HER BADLY..... I dun noe whether she knows tat i have a blog.but if she noes it, still she won't giv a damn on what shit iam blogging on.Nevertheless, I still cares for her alot...Wondering when will be her surgery. Oh man, i hopes she jus fine...haiz Errmm now i think she already succeed in moving on her life and forgetting me....but thats not the case for me lar... I just can't stop thinking of her for even a day...I just can't understand myself...I'm So Foolish lar... How i wish i can chat wif her like i used to be last time...I felt that she ignoring and trying her best to be apart frm Me man...but bottom line is..it's not her fault lar.. I've tried to understnd her...It's hurt me alooot... Rite now...iam just closing my heart and seal it tightly!...I just wanna keep my memories wif her forever in my heart... sory dear..if you read this,just ignore what i've said okays...and have fun wif ur life :)

Stayin' Single and Unavailable....Yeaps. i feel much more better Rite now...
alrite den..Cheerz!!! Update soon!

2006-08-14T22:30:00.002+08:00

Helooo! Peace upon u guys! Hehe

Hey i managed to push myself to go to work again...I am Back! Alrite2...There's somthin' i wants to update today...to many tragedies happened. Just now at work...I meet myUsual customers.. Chat here and there..talkin about life as usual.Suddenly there's one unfamiliar bangla customer..ask me for chicken wing.bla bla bla Durin Choppin..i den realise that his face look young..i ask him on his age..to my surprise he told me he's 17 u noe...So young lar!!.. i wonder how he manage to get the job in Singapore with that kind of age..should be above 21 i suppose..Nvm But the main point is..i still salute him..(handling huge responsiblities in supporting his family at that kind of age..woah!!) <Really makes me think> Alrite..Enuff of that oh yah..wanna know some foreign language...I learnt it from my own customer and my uncle..

"Beef"
in Bangbladeshi = 'Guru'
in Tamil= 'Maathe'
in Myannmar= 'Mehtha'
in Mandarin= ' Neu Roh'
in Tagalog='Baka'
in Thai='neur vouv'

Mind the spellin..I jus "hantam"

Heh!...Jus tat for now..a lot lar actually but u guys will be bored lar..okies Cheerz!!

2006-08-13T04:33:00.000+08:00

hi peeps..

Oh man...it's 4.29Am in the morning...I haven't sleep yet. Just came back just now from the firework festival thingy at ard 12 plus[managed to catch the last train]...I have to sacrifice my time now to work later. Cos' if i sleep now den i won't be awake later to go to work..Haiz...It's been a while since i'm not working...I need money man...What should i do now? Emm.staring at the laptop..errr Ouh yah..today is Big Zul Birthday. [ Happy Birthday Zulazmie!! if u read this la] alrite2... Usually i reach at the 'pasar' at ard 9am..and iam usually the latest 'chopPer" who reach there..Heh..
So i make sure later i reach there before 7am..[Catch the first bus and train]
It's all abt discipline man...I'm lacking of discipline ever seen I quit badminton..shuck!! Nevermind.....I'm Azhar and i shd get back to my root asap..[insys'ALLAH]Yeaps
Let me tell u guys something disturbing in my mind rite now..
1. I really wanna buckup myself up and moving out of this spell...
2. Make sure i got that enuff sum to payoff my practical lesson
3. Make sure my grades are fine and managed to clear off this semester without failing any modules..[inya'ALLAH]
4.and wondering when will i quit smoking..cos' now no ones cares abt me smokin anymore OPPz....muahaha!!
5.and lastly i still wondering to myself whether shd i play my part again even though i knw tat peo out there jus playin their Games..hmmm i think abt tat.. GAGAGA..

Hey check the video i post...just now..nothin to do la actually...hehe...
it's 5.04am..enuff of bloggin' okies...cheers!!

2006-08-13T02:26:00.000+08:00

2006-08-12T16:06:00.000+08:00

Some of my Art Work Using Just Paint......

2006-08-11T22:51:00.000+08:00

Haiyoooo!! I am feeling restless everyday since last Friday. Why?! I Just can't understand myself. A lots of questions just pop-up out of mind...Haiz.. I miss Old Azhar.. How I wish I can return back in time and be myself like I used to be before...happy go lucky...cheering...Yah..I used to be more discipline last time...Going work almost everydays. Insyaâ€™ALLAH...Iâ€™LL GET OVER THIS soon.Enuff of blogin' now I'm so sleeppy....Cheers!!Hey I thinking of My â€œfrenâ€‌ again..I miss my â€œfrenâ€‌ a lotâ€¦I am being so foolish. Maybe my â€œfrenâ€‌ canâ€™t even catch my name by now..Errrmm.

2006-08-11T22:11:00.000+08:00

Malini..tats the Box!!! Take it or leave it!

I Heart You

2006-08-11T01:03:00.000+08:00

Check this out!!
My LED Running Light...i've put alot of sweat to this creation.. Cool isn't it?
hey..This"electronic" Art Piece is dedicated to those tat i love...Muahaha!!!

Labby....

2006-08-10T22:25:00.000+08:00

....Hellooooz..Peace upon everyBody. I wanna say somthin'about my work...Arggg!! I am damn tired since last Friday. I am not been working for almost Four days!!...let me see..Sat,Sun,Tues,Wed...OMG!! How to save money for my TP test! Need at Least $500...It just around the corner la..I Need EnerGY!!! I've been eating energy pills but still it's not that effective enuff for my body..Haiz..To weak to go on with my current schedules.. It's Okays.. I'll take it positively..People say "Determination Leads to Success"... and it true la..

I'll make sure that i go to work after school tmrw...-money makes the world go round indeed.

2006-08-10T01:40:00.000+08:00

This Moon Makes the Day more Bright...Nice!
The Stadium...Nice Pic huh!
Another Here...
Our Singapore Flag... The crowd was so louD!! We were like shouting and cheering when we saw the Huge Flag above Us!
The AirBorn were soooo cool..I like! If iam not wrong there were more then ten parachuteR..heh

http://www.blogskins.com/preview.php?sid=1553

FlagUp Singapore!!

2006-08-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

Ouh Man!!! Iam damn Enjoy just now....muahaha!! I meet My best ever friends, Zul and Dan. It was a last minute plan to meet at kallang to take some "national day" snap. The first thing I do after i reached was to eat..hehe. So hungry lar...Look at the pic...so concentratin'.

Hey...cute smile isn't it..muahaha..ya right! At first there's not too much people but later at around 6+ like that....people start flooding the area. Damn crowdly. There's some techical problem here i guess..with the camera. Eventually, they managed to clear of the "dust" that might be causing the vision of the camera to be faulty,errm. Look at Dan...Testing he's camera to make sure it "ok" for the BIG snaplater on..
While waiting......Nothin to do....snap our pic! Hahaha..

2006-08-09T12:01:00.000+08:00

What are you smiling at? So cute la...

Gettin well

2006-08-09T11:39:00.000+08:00

Muhahah!!! What a nice finger tip i have...Gettin well soon Yeah Yeah!

Blood

2006-08-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

Helooz Peaps.. yeah my recent post was quite sentimental I supposed.(malini you wait...muahaha) Alrite...well last week was full of blood in my shop la. I've been choppin my own finger tips la(Thanks to God cos' I didn't manage to cut off my whole finger muahaha) Erm...It happen last Sunday...I was so busy with wedding projects- with a lot of orders need to prepare...den suddenly cHop* gagaga...part of my nail already gone...ouh... Dammit so painful if u guys can imagine that. Blood just freely dripping out my finger...gagaga.

There's this Bangladesh customer...he's the one that notice the incident. So pity him, my tiny mini finger tips just mixed with his mutton...ewww!!muhahaha. And he doesn't realize that I suppos...muahaha. At that moment I told my workmates( Fir) that I just cut myself. He was like "Ouh man"and trying to help me out.I am like a disable person( delay my work some more) at that moment man..hahaha. I then realize different methods of so called stopping the blood from flowing non-stop.

For Fir, he grab my finger and tied it with a string...indeed the blood stop..( of course lar eh) den the I soaked it in small bucket of ice..(Makes my finger freeze like it gonna break like that) Later there's this stranger from out of nowhere approached me- I show my finger and you now what-he pinch a bit of tobacco from his cigarette and place it on my injured finger...till now I still don't know whether its useful or not. After about 20 minutes sitting at the side (suffering)...I felt a little okay. I really feel like get back to work. [My Uncle once told me that he once got a terrible cut on he's finger lastimeâ€¦and he still continue working] With that in mind, I forced myself to keep on working...or else pity Fir..gonna work alone..ga ga ga.

My Uncle came late...I though he gonna say somthin about my finger But You Know Whatâ€¦look at the conversation
Me> I just cut myselfâ€¦
Uncle> Ouh reallyâ€¦Good For Youâ€¦( clapping hand)
Me> What the hellâ€¦talking to myself- hey he donâ€™t care about me.
Uncle> Iâ€™ll increase your rankâ€¦
Me> Huh?
Heâ€™s damm sarcastic la...but I know he's just trying to make me feels that cut. bruises.pain.blood is just a part and parcel of a Chopper Guy..( yeah malini..muahaha)

To cut it shortâ€¦three days later, My Uncle had a terrible cut on his finger. Oppzzâ€¦.You Know what I doâ€¦muahahaha. Alright I donâ€™t need to say that.
Ahhh!!! Very sleepy..Gonna grab my pillow soonâ€¦It keep up later Bubye!

UpRight...

2006-08-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

Woah!! Heh...Peace upon everybody!! This is my first eVer post...first eVer blog...I've creates. While typin' I just wonder who wants to read this post...(such a low profile guy I am..heh) Well, I start with the reasons why I just feel like want to have a blog. Well...I just feel down this few days or weeks. I just can't concentrate on my work...( I still love and miss.....badly)Haiz. I just need to express myself HeRe... Emmm, during this "down" period I should say, I have done a lots of reflection on myself...Some people just don't appreciate me...I guess. Hmm, I tent to realize who I am .What have I done to make myself to be better man..??? What have I done for my family?? Have I bring about at least a smile to my grandMOM??...grandDAD??...My dad...??My mum...?? Arggg!!! Oh man..God pls give me strength to at least show my appreciation to them. After all this while they have made me to be who I am now...(Oh God...thanks aloooott) I just can't take it ...lookin' at grandMoM...By holdin her hand, I just feel the touch of love that arrow deeEEp inside my heart from her...It soooo Damm precious I tell You...(May God bless Her) Oh man..tears start to flow already...nevermind, it's just me.I just Love.. my family. My grandDAD is so supportive...he's damm intelligent lar. You Know what, he wants me to be a Police office..gagaga. Yah..cos' he's once a policeman before la. I miss our nice chattin'..man. he always talk about his experiences as a police officerâ€¦jokin' around...create trouble with the bad guyâ€¦and even told me ways he hit the bad guy wif his hand cuff..Damm evil seh But yah that's how it should be done I suppose..Haha.. Well, in a Nutshells, I just want my family to be happy. I've been sacrificing my time...my energy just to lessen burden for them. Hey..I shouldn't waste my young energy u know. This young blood will one day be somebody (inya'ALLAH)Guys...this is time for us to show our CARE and LOVE to them. DON'T wait till last minute. Will terribly regret later..man. I'm not saying as if I've done the most deed to my family. But I m just trying to create awareness for myself and others. Well, for now, I been working every single days(excluding the days that I am too weak...yah right) I've been slotting my money in my "mini pouch" cos' of this licenses that really2 need to get...Oh man damm tiring..( hey no complains aZa..erm heh) Alrite2, I need to sleep now...to be continued when I'm free alrite.Bubye!!